I've been trying to get myself motivated and also realize that I'm not going to get into every grad school I apply too, which means I need to find more schools with programs that I'm interested in. Then I realized that deadlines are quickly approaching.
So last night I began my frenzied search...
At this point I've started my application to Drexel for their psych Masters (I know, it's a long shot, but it's a free application!). I also started looking into Women's Studies Masters programs. I sort of feel like a traitor applying to Women's Studies... I'm a psych major with a Women's Studies and french minor and I've intended to go to grad school for psych for a while now. My advisor expects me to go for psych, which is where I get caught up.
I'm the type of person that will do exactly what people expect me to. Always have been, thought I'm trying to break free of that. I just don't want to let my advisor down...she's done so much for me and really inspires me on a daily basis. I love psych, I really do, but I don't know if I want to go into the psych field for the rest of my life.
I know what you're thinking "You need to do what's right for you"...yeah, easier said than done in my case. I don't know what's right for me. I've never really had the chance to figure that out. All I know is that since I started college I've been majorly invovled in advocacy programs, the Vagina Monologues and other activities that are focused around Women's Studies and ending violence against women. That's what I think I want to do. I want to do outreach in Urban areas for women, creating educational and intervention programs. I know psych would be a good background for it, but I think women's studies is the better way to go.
So I'm applying to Women's Studies programs too. Right now I have started the applications to SUNY Albany, DePaul and Eastern Michigan, but I should probably find more. Luckily all of these places either have a later application date or don't require the "Grrrrrrrr", so it won't be hard to get those done. I mainly just have to get on top of writing my personal statements, that's really the only thing holding me up.
Oh...another thing "holding me up" is going to be recommendation letters. Since I'm scared to tell my psych advisor I don't necessarily want to go into a psych program, that means I have to find other people to write me recommendation letters. It's not a HUGE problem, but it's not going to be the easiest thing to do either. I have two other professors that have written recommendations to Drexel for me already (one of which is a Women's Studies professor who I know will be thrilled with this decision!). But I don't want to overload them...
I just have the problem of having so many majors in the past and usually only taking 1 or 2 classes with any given professor. I'd really like to get recommendations from profs that know me well (you know, what you're supposed to do). The only other profs I've taken more than one class in the psych dept really aren't that fond of me so I really don't think I'll go to them. There is always the french dept...oh wait, I already asked the french prof I've had since my freshman year and she flat out told me she doesn't really think I'll make it in grad school...THANKS FOR THAT! Ehh what does she know (besides being ABD and all...).
Well I guess I should get back to those applications and that damn personal statement.
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